give me a reason...

Monday, October 20, 2008

*OHthegloomsetsin

I'm not always available on weekends anymore.
I cannot go to church everyweek anymore.
I won't be there at everysingle family day.
I'm going to start missing the few people that i like to see often so much more.
I might have weekdays where im off but i'll stay at home to recuperate or not go out because everyone else with normal jobs/school is busy.
I might not get my public holidays off.
I might have to work while everyoneelse with normal jobs/school is sleeping.
I have to talk to old people everyday.
I have to wear my fake, non-genuine smile that i'm getting oh-so-used-to more often.
I have to psych myself to maintain a rather happy disposition on my job.
work hours are AM:7-3.30pm, PM: 1-9pm, ND: 8.30-7.30am, 40 hours+ a week, 5days a week

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
i keep praying for God to let me find that silver lining and to sustain me through this all the way through to 19FEB.
any offers for car rides, happy injecting time, long talks, long walks are welcomed.
i need my chickensoup for the soul.

4 Comments:

Blogger Sam said...

I'm SURE there is a silver lining dear it just might not be apparent right now. We go through every stage of our lives knowing that all things work out for the good of those who love Him so be the real kaixin you are okay?! :)
and i'm still here! don't forget we are nearby each other!
Cheer up darlin, Smile, cos you make me!

October 20, 2008 at 4:40 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

THEN I GOT NO BEST FRIEND ON SATURDAYS!!!!! SOBSSSS

this sat how! :(

October 20, 2008 at 7:29 AM  
Blogger estella said...

DAHLING! :)

i know i know, it's dreary and you just need a reason to smile right! it's okay ya? when you feel really shitty, just know you can call me anytime to complain! ANYTIME. even if it's night shift, and like all the old people are asleep. i will be awake waiting for your call. you can call me! :) plus email me your free days so we can try to meet! just chilling is good too, if you're too tired.

hang in there aight? when everything's over, we WILL go for a holiday and leave everythig behind! :D hoo hoo.

October 20, 2008 at 11:29 PM  
Blogger Jo*Lene said...

jamie: this saturday everything as normal! i have off. i'll call you tmr to discuss where to meet and what?

sam: HOKAY! thanks babe:) we should really really find a common lunch hour. but mines always round 11-12. or or we could meet up after my morning shift

lala: i feel better now :) im gonna get my schedule soon, say friday or sunday thn we can make planssss

October 22, 2008 at 7:11 PM  

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